
Hit Bottom
(and stay there...)
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Hit Bottom
(and stay there...)
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Hit Bottom
...and stay there.
How can you tell you are at Bottom?
There is nothing left to lose.
You have no more Stories.
A Story is something you cling to as a life ring, as if the Story could help you survive.
But what survives in Stories is not you. It is your Box.
Having a Story means you are not at the Bottom because you still have something left to lose.
What Is It To Hit Bottom?
WARNING:
If your nervous system has been oversensitized through physical or psychological abuse...
If you have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)....
If you tend to relive traumatic events from war or from your childhood through nightmares and flashbacks...
If you experience being isolated, irritable, guilty...
If you have problems sleeping, such as insomnia, and find concentrating difficult...
we recommend that you DO NOT read through this website now.
Formal Preparations are needed to make use of the possibility of Hitting Bottom that is offered here.
These Preparations could take a couple of years of guided work in a Team to accomplish.
For example:
You need to be absurdly effective at staying in Possibilitator First Position, that is, Centered, Grounded, Bubbled, and Present in a Minimized NOW with your Sword Of Clarity out and your Bullshit Detector full on.
You need to have dropped a lot of your ordinary cultural Baggage.
You need to have shifted out of Verbal Reality and into Experiential Reality.
You need to be good at Inner Navigating your 4 Feelings and your 4 Emotions, at both low and high levels of intensity, naturally using your Feelings for handling things and your Emotions for healing things.
You need to be able to Unmix your Emotions.
You need to be living with Upgraded Thoughtware, including the New Thoughtmap of Four Feelings from Valerie Lankford.
You need to be okay with consciously Navigating Space into all 3 Worlds: the Middleworld, the Underworld, and the Upperworld.
And so on...
If you have any doubts (uncertainties, fears, confusion) or are feeling 'pressured' to Hit Bottom, we strongly recommend connecting with a Possibility Coach and asking them to help assess where you are with regards to Hitting Bottom.
IT STARTS WITH YOUR FEAR OF YOUR OWN FEAR
Most people even after years of practice are not friends with their fear. They refuse to acknowledge Low Intensity fear in their daily lives, so they cannot communicate about their fears. They are not letting Low Intensity fears reveal their wisdom.
Why is this?
What is your Stand with your fear?
Can you be more than a match for your fear? Or does your fear force you into submission... numb, frozen, speechless, dead.
How can you become afraid and not frozen? 'Is that even possible?' you may wonder.
What if there were a consciously Cavitated and Held Space so safe that your Survival Strategy was not even triggered? It is so safe that your Box and your Gremlin cannot shut down the space with their 'neediness', their demands, and their sabotage tricks. How would you behave in that Space?
In a Space like this, it is impossible to do it wrong.
In such a Space, you cannot have the wrong answer.
We have provided this super safe Space hundreds of times for thousands of people for over twenty-five years...
and people cannot enter this Space because they are still in school, still in their family.
They are already dead, having decided long ago that it was safer to be dead than to be alive.
Their 'fog'-generating Mind Machines pump out confusion and dunderheadedness until the person cannnot even think about what they are doing, or notice the opportunities they are missing. They still cannot speak or act spontaneously without their Gremlin agenda prevailing.
They are a total mess.
How can a person learn to let their heart speak even when they are a mess?
What is the fear about simple Presence, Connection, and Radical Relating?
Since you were eighteen years of age, there was always the possibility of being yourself without pressuring yourself in any situation. The Space is safe for you to allow yourself to feel and communicate whatever percentage intensity of fear you wish. It is and has been entirely up to you so frame up your interactions. Still you are frozen.
The Spaceholder is risking full out to Cavitate and Navigate this super safe space. It is time to play ball, to exchange, to make Proposals and Negotiate Intimacies for real. What are you willing to risk without putting on the show, without trying to be funny, without pretending as if you are a good person.
How is that for you to have been terrorized into being so much of a Victim that the world can only be a Low Drama for you?
Why is it that you can only speak to not offend people?
You are the mess.
What happens if you stop believing your own Victim Story? Yes... that is the fear we are talking about. That is the fear that owns your voice, your feet, your hands, your mind and your heart.
How is it for you to have to sacrifice Love and real Presence in order to keep the show going on, rather than being really there, really you, really connected, collaboratively interactive?
Something other than Emotional Fear will appear only if you stay at exactly that place of acknowledging that you have sacrificed your Authenticity.
How is it for you to be stuck in your head's version of the world? How is it for you to never be truly seen or heard?
WHERE IS THE BOTTOM?
The Bottom begins in your pain of not being Present in your own life or for the people with whom you relate. What if you do not notice it? What if you cannot feel that pain?
How can you dare to feel that pain without automatically triggering the self-made Story that you are a loser, a worthless piece of shit in the world?
These Stories about yourself are you primary Survival Strategy. If you can kill yourself first, then no one else has to suppress or subdue you. You are already doing it to yourself far worse than they could ever to it to you, because you believe that what you think is true is actually true. You are a master at fooling yourself about this.
Why hit bottom? Because when nothing else works and nothing else exists, there are no stories.
Imagine that for a moment. No stories... about anything.
There are still feelings at the Bottom, but the feelings have no Stories tied to them.
And the feelings have words. Your heart can use words to communicate its feelings directly to another person without tying on any Story from your mind.
The words of your feelings from your heart are a bridge that your heart builds so that the experience of its feelings can be transmitted over to another person's heart, and in their heart (not in their mind) they 'get' (not 'understand') what your heart is feeling. This actually works. This actually is a basis for Radical Relating. This actually is a set of simple skills that you can learn.
Your heart can use words to say 'what is' without holding on to a story about 'what is'.
The heart can say the next thing, and the next thing, and even if the things are contradictory and seem 'crazy' in the view of the mind, they are not contradictory or crazy in the view of the heart. What matters to the mind may not matter to the heart at all.
If you have a sensation of 'being pressured' from someone or something outside of you, it is a twisted story - a 'racket' with a hidden payoff - that you use to cover over your fear. This is a parallel situation to anger. If you have a sensation of 'being confused', this is a twisted story - a 'racket' covering over your anger.
If instead of saying, "I feel confused..." or, "You are confusing me!" you say, "I feel angry about..." you will be much closer to the truth, much closer to the Bottom of things.
If instead of saying, "I feel pressured..." or, "You are pressuring me!" you say, "I feel scared about..." you will be much closer to the truth, much closer to the Bottom of things.
Ahh! We are finding a way to Hit Bottom. Stop the rackets. Speak the truth.
How can you tell if you are at the Bottom? You can tell because you are not telling a Story. There are no Assumptions, no Expectations, no Conclusions, no Projections, no Judgments, no Prejudices, etc.
Your Work is to find all the subtle twisted ways you destroy the Space of Radical Relating by going away from the Bottom.
You will stay at the Bottom if you say what needs to be said from the Bottom's perspective. This may be far less than what your mind or your Box and Gremlin Survival Strategy blah-blah are comfortable and familiar with saying. Making a cloud of verbal distractions and stink is how to leave the Bottom, not stay at the Bottom.
Say what needs to be said from being in Integrity with yourself, from being Accountable for your life. What is your Stand right now, without lying? This is what needs to be said. What are you actually trying to create?
ISN'T IT BAD TO HIT BOTTOM?
The term 'Hit Bottom' emerged in the 1960's
From the viewpoint of the ordinary sleeping Zombie world, to 'Hit Bottom' means to be a failure in marriage, to lose your job, to have the bank repossess your home, to get addicted to drugs, or to be convicted of a crime and put in prison.
If you 'Hit Bottom' then you modern culture may send you to a counseling center where you start sessions with a psychologist who may force you to take mood-altering brain drugs.
Modern culture uses a model of '2 Phase Healing'. In Phase 1 you are viewed as 'being well'. In Phase 2 you are viewed as being sick or unwell. The aim of the healer or therapist is to bring you back to how you were in Phase 1, forgetting that the conditions of Phase 1 are what made you sick in the first place.
Here we are proposing a model from Archiarchy of '3 Phase Healing'. In Phase 1 your are viewed as where you are on your evolutionary Path. In Phase 2 you are viewed as being in a transformational Liquid State in one or more of your 5 Bodies. Then the aim of the Possibilitator is to provide Clarity and Possibility which you can use to go through the 5 Body shift or expansion processes so that you efficiently stabilize in Phase 3, which is being a new person with expanded Matrix able to navigate your next steps along your Path.
From the Archan perspective, Hitting Bottom is something to celebrate in the same way that a caterpillar would celebrate the outrageously disturbing discomfort of having to weave herself into a chrysalis and melt down into paste on her way to becoming a butterfly, even if she never saw or heard of a 'butterfly' in her caterpillar condition.
In the case of this website, we recommend that you 'Hit Bottom' as often and as thoroughly as possible. If you Hit Bottom three times before breakfast, this could be the start of a very fine day.
To Hit Bottom begins the transformational Phoenix Process.
Another way to view it is that to Hit Bottom is to 'enter reality'.
IF YOU HAVE A STORY YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO LOSE
Each Story has a Purpose which can be detected with a calibrated Purpose Sniffer, one of a Possibilitator's 13 Tools. Every Story is headed somewhere. It has an agenda, a plan. That Purpose can be detected the moment the Story is spoken by the tone of voice, by the speaker's intention, by where the speaker places their attention.
You can accurately discern the Purpose of your own Story, or the Purpose of any other Story, by 'following the money'. In this case, 'the money' is the payoff or the benefit. The central Purpose of every Story is deception, either self-deception or deceiving others, manipulating them, misdirecting them.
Staying at the Bottom trains your nervous system in a new way of being with yourself, with other people, and with the world.
Saying, "I'm afraid," does not let you off the hook.
Creating a distraction or a deception cannot possibly remove your Radical Responsibility for being exactly where you are.
You do not get to use, "I'm afraid..." as an excuse to avoid responsibility or to avoid relating, as if 'everybody knows and agrees' that feeling fear is bad or wrong or dangerous or stupid.
If the truth is that you are afraid, then this is extremely useful energy and information for you. It is not a problem. It is the solution to the problem, to whatever problem is in your field at the moment.
RADICAL RELATING STARTS AT STORYLESSNESS
If you look at yourself from someone else's judgemental or criticizing perspective, trying to figure out how to avoid having them make up some kind of bad story about you, then you are not being you. You try to outguess or outmaneuver what they will think, or feel, or do. By trying to avoid their criticism you are not being you. They are terrorizing you because you opened yourself to that. You are not fit, and your heart and Being feel this.
Instead you can use your fear to detect the Boundaries that you did not make with that person which allows them to continue to terrorize you. You can use your fear to unleash your anger to make the missing Boundaries so you are not terrorized anymore. This is a simple reorientation.
If you make a Boundary, you are no longer a 'nice person'. You are no longer easy to manipulate or control. You become problemmatical to others. You staying at the Bottom may be problemmatical for others.
If you make it a problem for you that others perceive you as problemmatical, then again you are not there at the Bottom.
THE BOTTOM IS GROUNDLESS
Pema Chodron famously said, "The nature of reality is groundlessness."
Clinton Callahan famously said, "Human beings are designed to fly."
A characteristic of the Bottom is that it gives you nothing to stand on. The Bottom is groundless. It gives you No Reason, no place to leverage your positionality.
We also say that Hitting Bottom does not necessarily make sense to the mind.
But having nothing to stand on... to gain the ability to be Present and to Relate while standing on nothing... here is a skillset to cherish and to develop over a lifetime.
And if you can stand on nothing, then there is probably nothing you can't stand on.
THERE IS A CONSCIOUS PATH TO THE BOTTOM
Hitting Bottom and staying there is central to Radical Relating.
If you cannot Hit Bottom and stay there, you cannot Radically Relate.
Even if you must over and over again Hit Bottom through your pain about not being at the Bottom, you still have a chance at Radical Relating. It's just this avenue becomes really boring after the second or third time you try to Hit Bottom that way. It is far more refreshing to simply stay on the Bottom and Radically Relate from there.
The core skill for Radical Relating from the Bottom is experiencing and expressing low, medium, and high intensity Feelings and Emotions of Conscious Fear, Sadness, Anger, and Joy.
If you cannot do that, there is nothing else for you to practice, but that.
Find yourelf a kick-butt Possibility Coach and tell them, "You've got three weeks to get me to Consciously Feel."
You need to be able to look at what is really going on inside of you, your Inner Memetic Structure, where it came from, why you built it this way. (Yes, you built it that way. You decided to put every brick in the wall.)
Each Feeling and Emotion - even at the 3% intensity level - gives you information about a decision or a vow. As you recognize your original intentions and communicate them to another consciousness, something changes for you. You get to go back to the same moment you created your insanity and make a new choice. You get to go a new direction. You get to start over.
If you say, "There is fear..." that is a third-person noticing that comes from your mind. It is not a feeling.
If there are concepts but no gripping physical sensations that cause tears, moans, face contortions, hand motions, shakes, kicking, trembles, roars and so on, this is not feeling. You are thinking about feeling but not feeling. This gets you nowhere.
Learn to feel. It is Phase 1 of Feelings Work. You cannot get to Phase 2 of Feelings Work except through Phase 1 of Feelings Work. In Phase 1 of Feelings Work you cannot actually do anything healing or transformative with your feelings.
Unconsciously 'Hitting Bottom', emotionally 'Hitting Bottom', reactively 'Hitting Bottom' is useless or worse.
This Work is about Hitting Bottom on purpose... intentionally staying at the Bottom in its fully intense meaninglessness, letting the rest of the world fall where it may around your Archan Relating - of which Radical Relating is only a part.
When you have, in reality, Hit Bottom, you have, in reality, nothing left to lose.
If you have nothing left to lose, then why be afraid of feeling the fear?
Go ahead and actually feel the fear.
"This be where the Treasure lies."
"Sometimes we have to make a complete and absolute disaster of our lives in such an epic, unavoidable way so that it can suddenly become absolutely clear to us what we have been doing all along.”
- David Whyte
The Bottom is not 'Letting your heart speak.'
The Bottom is not the Swamp.
The Bottom is the Archetypal Point Of Origin that you stand on
when you 'go cold turkey with' ('abstain from') your
addictions of trying to please (or trying to fight against)other people, instead of being yourself with no Stories attached.
The Bottom is the frameworld for Radical Relating.
To Hit Bottom and stay there is the opposite of Being Adaptive.
- Distinctionary
Randy Newman
The simple piano version of this song I woud prefer you to hear is at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44Pb9VzSBGg
but they won't allow it to be shown on other websites. You can watch it there.
The Swamp
THE SWAMP IS NOT THE BOTTOM
You got a Beep!
You got Feedback.
You are totally Hooked.
You are Triggered.
You took one step too far and fell into the Swamp.
You are not HERE, not NOW, anymore.
Yet, you have cultivated enough conscious awareness to know that what is going on inside of you is not real... while you still helplessly slip into the sea of emotions that pulls you out of the present like a riptide you just can’t fight.
You may be back there, hanging out in the past for an hour or a day, while the sticky, mucky Swamp swallows you past your knees with no sign of letting you loose.
You desperately want to choose something different, but the only choice you see is to stay in this horridness.
At least one Part of you wants to be here in the Minimized NOW with your 4 Feelings and 5 Bodies fully online, letting the Bright Principles work through you, in your Free And Natural Adult, or even Archetypal, Egostate. You want to be fully of service. You want to be on the Team with the others. You want to Notice what is happening in the people and environment around you.
And still, this battle inside of you rages on: to be here, or not to be here, that is the challenge.
How do you use your 3 Powers, your Sword Of Clarity, your Stand, (and other energetic tools or forces) to CHOOSE what you want in this moment without trying to fix it or get it to go away?
How can you consciously choose the present when you are somewhere else and the only option visible is to suffer?
SELF ABUSE IS NOT THE BOTTOM
Gremlin loves Self Abuse.
Gremlin loves to gorge itself on the Underworld feast of Abusing you and others.
Criticize those idiots, thos assholes, judging them, blaming them, plotting revenge against them, hating them, compare yourself against them, comparing their lives with yours, hating yourself some more...
Years can go by 'secretly' abusing yourself and others.
And it is not even the Bottom.
Yes, it is your Underworld.
Yes, your thoughts, feelings, and actions serve Shadow Principles.
But it is not the Bottom.
Abusing yourself and others is a clever way for Gremlin to fatten him/herself up in the guise of being at the Bottom.
Abuse is what you do to avoid Hitting Bottom.
At the Bottom, Gremlin has nothing to hold onto.
Your Gremlin is freaking terrified that you are actually on this journey to Hit Bottom, because she/he can do nothing to protect you there.
On the Bottom there are no Stories.
Gremlin's flops around friction-free at the Bottom - like a dog on ice.
To get to the Bottom you need to navigate through Gremlin's abusive tactics.
Here are some resources to help you with that:
I Can't...
A STORY ABOUT A STORY
Stories are made with Is Glue.
Is Glue is one of your 13 Tools.
Each human being is born with a tube of Is Glue hanging on their Energetic Toolbelt.
One of the unique characteristics Gaia gave to Homo sapiens sapiens is that little tube of Is Glue hanging there on your belt. Is Glue is Gaia's big experiment with humans. Dogs do not have Is Glue. Chimpanzees do not have Is Glue. Dolphins do not have Is Glue. Only humans have Is Glue.
Gaia's experimental question is: "If I give Is Glue to human beings, will they use it for evolving their Consciousness, or for feeding their Gremlin?"
So far, humans are not doing very well in this experiment. The first thing we did with our Is Glue is banish Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes from our cultures some 6000 years ago, by organizing ourselves into Hierarchies that automatically promote Psychopaths to the top, who's first command is to forbid Authentic Adulthood Initiations. Why? Because Psychopaths do not make it through the Initiations.
Hmmm... not very bright, though...
Authentic Adulthood Initiations Build Matrix that make it possible for human beings to be Radically Responsible about not believing in Bullshit made with Is Glue...
ESPECIALLY not believing in the Bullshit that you Is Glued together yourself.
Initiations make you immune to Fantasy Worlds.
We are failing in this Initiation as a species.
We are more fascinated with Fantasy Worlds (e.g. your phone...) than with calibrating our Compass Of Reality. We are more tempted by following some Handsome Holy Tribal Man than with dropping our Baggage and making steps along our Path towards the Eye Of The Needle.
But as an individual, you do not have to fail in this Initiation. You can Change Your Mind. You can Declare a different preference for yourself.
It can help to remind yourself that Is Glue comes in the following formats:
is, am, are, was, were, has, have, had, do, does, did, may, might, must, can, could, would, should, shall, will...
and the NOT forms, such as:
is not, am not, are not... etc.
For example, the Story World: "I can't." is made using the 'not' form of the Is Glue: can.
It is a condensed Story made out of gluing "I" together with "do this" using the Is Glue "cannot", to produce an incredibly artistic and convincing formulation of Bullshit, namely: "I cannot do this."
Stories are Bullshit.
All Stories are Bullshit.
How can a Story not be Bullshit? It is made up out of nothing, fabricated in your own mind for some Purpose.
It takes energy to Is Glue as Story World together.
This means humans do not make up a Story for no Purpose.
You are either Conscious of the Purpose of your Story, in which case you are serving Bright Principles and creating a High Drama Story World that feeds the Possibilitator in you... OR, you are Unconscious of the Purpose of your Story, in which case you are serving Shadow Principles and creating a Low Drama Story World that feeds the Gremlin in you.
It can be quite useful to make these Distinctions about what you are Creating if you wish to have the option of proving the Possibilitator's motto: "Something completely different from this is possible right now."
This clarity comes from the Thoughtmap Of Possibility.
The above words are a Story about Stories. This Story is Bullshit because it is made out of Is Glue.
It might, however, be one of the most useful pieces of Bullshit that you encounter in your entire life.
Particularly now, when you are unconsciously creating and believing the Bullshit Story, "I can't" with regards to authentically feeling your fear.
Saying, "I cannot do this," is false.
The truth is more accurately stated as: "I decided not to do this."
The moment you recognize that you have made a Decision - which is one of your 3 Powers as a human being (Declaring, Choosing, and Asking) - you take Radical Responsibility.
You own that you are solely responsible for making this Decision - even if your father made the same decision and you only copied him so that he might like you more...
By Declaring that you made the decision yourself, you open up an entirely new possibility.
You open up the possibility of finding out why you decided this. What is your Reason?
There are many reasons you might have decided (in this case) not to feel your fear.
Here are some possible reasons:
"If I feel my fear, I am afraid I might not know who I will become."
"If I feel my fear, I am afraid to get lost and not know who I am anymore."
"If I feel my fear then my Survival Strategy might not work anymore, and I am afraid I might not survive."
"If people see that I am afraid, they might not like me anymore."
"If I feel my fear then I show people I am not 'happy' or 'strong' or 'trustworthy' or 'respectable' anymore. I will be a loser."
"Since I don't understand how my fear goes, I am afraid that if I feel even a little fear, I will go beyond what I know."
"If I start to feel my fear - even at the tiniest lowest levels of intensity - I might never be able to stop."
"If I start to feel my fear, the wall I built against feeling my fear might crack or break down and I might be engulfed in endless waves of terror that will never, ever, end."
"If I start to feel my fear, I will lose control and I will completely come apart, never being able to get it back together again."
"If I start to feel even the slightest fear I might suffocate in insanely massive horrible endless screams of fear. I might go crazy forever and never be able to come back."
"If I feel my fear, I am afraid that I will end up just like my mother."
"If I feel my fear then they will have to put me on brain drugs or lock me away in an institution."
"If I feel my fear I might end up killing myself..."
And so on...
What is your personal reason for not wanting to feel your fear?
Write your reason down in your Beep! Book.
Go ahead and do it now, if you want. I will wait here for you...
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Thank you for doing this.
Please keep writing for a bit. Please write down all your Reasons in the back of your Beep! Book for later reference.
These are precious discoveries, like learning the combination to a locked Treasure chest. Once you know the combination you can always gain access the Treasure.
Take a breath. Pause a moment to notice that... every one of your Reasons is powered by fear.
You are already feeling low levels of fear to write down your Reasons for not wanting to feel your fear.
You did it.
You felt your Low Intensity fear and used its intelligence to inform you.
Check yourself out. Are you okay? Did you survive?
For all this time before now you were using Conclusions about yourself, your fear, and the world which you made long ago, under different circumstances than you are in now, and before you learned what know now.
During the past few months and years you have been learning whole new Inner Navigation skills.
You have been upgrading your Inner Structure with new thoughtware that has more Distinctions and therefore more Clarity and therefore more power than the old thoughtware you received from your parents - Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware (S.H.I.T.).
Perhaps you do not recognize how many new things you have learned and how much you already changed.
It is a lot.
Keep breathing please.
You inhabit a new world now, a world that you reconstructed through gaining new capabilities, one of which is to be able to feel your fear and to be okay with using the intelligence and energy of your fear in your life.
Now you can keep going.
The rest is up to you.
Your whole future is waiting for you to explore using the instant intelligence and precise energy of your Conscious Fears.
And... by the way... that old story... the one you carried around with you for so long? "I can't."
Perhaps that story is used up. It has disintegrated into dust... It is digested into the compost of your past, fertilizer for enriching the unfolding of a new future for you.
Sure, you could still use that old Story any time you want.
Many people would still believe you if you told it to them.
But now, you don't have to believe you anymore.
You are free of that.
Nice work.
Alanis Morisette
Thank you consequence. Thank you terror. Thank you disillusionment. Thank you nothingness. Thank you clarity. Thank you, thank you, silence.
The Unprocess
HITTING BOTTOM IS NOT A PROCESS
A Process has a beginning, a middle, and an end... a 'wrap up'.
A process goes somewhere (new territory) and accomplishes changes (new realizations, new decisions, new clarity, new possibility).
Hiting Bottom does not go anywhere or accomplish anything.
Hitting Bottom is not a Process.
Hitting Bottom is a way of being that does not require society or civilization to define what it is.
The Bottom is a place.
Either you are at the Bottom, or you are somewhere else.
The Bottom is an orientation towards life, yourself, and the world.
You can only practice Hitting Bottom. You cannot accomplish it.
The Bottom never goes away. But you do.
To explore Hitting Bottom you get in pairs, the Journeyer and the Possibilitator.
You sit across from each other in chairs (not cross-legged on the floor, as this position suppressed subtle whole-body experiences). You have with you tissues, red cloth, and barf bucket.
Turn the lights lower, but not off.
The Possibilitator has the Journeyer's Beep! Book, but may write nothing down in the whole Journey.
The Possibilitator does NOT offer the Journeyer any new Clarity or Possibility.
The Possibilitator is not trying to figure anything out.
Neither is the Journeyer.
The Bottom is not depressing, even though at the Bottom there are no hopes or dreams.
The Bottom is not scary even thought there is nothing there to hold on to or to hide behind.
The Bottom is neither 'dark' nor 'black' even though there is no Source of Light. A Source of Light would be 'something', and if there is anything, you are not at the Bottom.
The Possibilitator is Holding Space at the Bottom, and waiting there.
NOTE TO THE SPACE HOLDER: Since you will be Holding Space for the Journeyer at the Bottom, it is useful if you yourself can Hit Bottom, so that the Bottom already exists in the Space you are Holding as a place for the Journey to land. The Journeyer can 'easily'... (let us say, 'simply'...) find the Bottom all by themselves. The Bottom never goes away. The Bottom is always available.
The Possibilitator says, "Please close your eyes, take a deep breath, and make sure you have your Center, your Grounding Cord, and your Bubble."
"My Grounding cord is _____. Please tell me the color of your Grounding Cord." The Journeyer answers.
"Thank you."
"I am Holding Space for you to Hit Bottom."
"Let the Journey begin."
The manifestations of the Hit Bottom Journey are as varied as are people's Survival Strategies, in other words, infinite variety. There is no method to Hit Bottom.
But with some practice, both Possibilitator and Journeyer can begin to recognize if they are at the Bottom or not.
The Bottom can be the starting place for your everyday life.
The Bottom is an appropriate reference frame for Radical Relating.
You can only 'get real' with each other at the Bottom.
NOTE TO THE SPACEHOLDER: The human nervous system has a measurable capacity for enduring the intensity of a Journey to Hit Bottom. There is no benefit in trying to encourage the Journeyer to force their way deeper or to stay at the Bottom for a longer time. As the Spaceholder you will not the Journey making internal shifts or Building Experiential Matrix for Journeying towards or staying at the Bottom. There will be signals from the Journeyer, a shift of emotional intensity, a sense of expansion or new terror as a Memetic Construct dissolves or a Commitment to conform or obey to other people's Constructs explodes into rage. A Journeyer can hold approximately 5 of these Shifts. After the fifth Shift, you can say, "It looks like there have already been about 5 shifts. Perhaps this is enough for now? What do you think?" If they say, "No, it's not enough!" you can say, "Perhaps you just discovered another external authority you are trying to please, another driver forceing your forward trying to be okay to meet someone else's measure. Please take a deep breath and check it out in yourself. Could this be enough for now?"
When the Journeyer agrees to end the Journey for now, ask them to please lie on their side or their back on a mattress with an blanket available to cover themselves if they want. What is needed now is 15 to 20 minutes of undisturbed integration time.
COACHING FROM THE SPACEHOLDER
Do not try to communicate your feelings to me saying, "I feel mad, sad, glad, or scared because _______."
This is a Story.
The way to the Bottom is not through Stories.
At the Bottom, there are no Stories.
If you have a Story, you are not at the Bottom.
You will feel things. Do not try to explain your feelings to me. Instead, share them with me.
Do not package what you say so that you think I will understand you better.
This Journey is not about understanding.
Instead let your words be a bridge to reveal your present time experiences. Not the past. Not the future.
Say what is going down now.
The Swamp... with all its emotionality, justifications, confusions and hopelessness... is not the Bottom.
The Swamp is a defense against Hitting Bottom. Think about that for a moment...
To survive your childhood you needed to adopt to external constraints.
There were people who claimed to have authority over you: teachers, coaches, choir leaders, music instructors, priests, ministers, police, politicians, babysitters, daycare ladies.
In reality, no one has authority over you.
At the Bottom there are no external constraints.
At the Bottom there are no Memetic Consstructs to define yourself with or to fight against.
The Bottom is without 'Shoulds' and 'Should nots'.
Without 'Supposed tos'.
Without 'Have tos'.
Without 'Musts' and 'Must nots'.
Without 'Cannot'.
Without measures for 'success' or 'failure'.
Without goals to 'achieve'.
Without comparisons.
There is only you, and the Bottom.
The Bottom stretches wide to the horizon in every direction.
Being at the Bottom is NOT about 'letting your heart speak'. If your heart is speaking it is coming from your heart. It is coming from the small place at the center of your chest.
The Bottom is not small and it is not in your chest.
The Bottom is Vast.
On the bottom, every option is an option.
There is no one to adapt to, no one to blame, no one else to decide for you, no one to judge you.
It is the Bottom.
There is nothing else.
Another person is a equally unknowable as the Bottom.
There is encounter and recognition of another.
But there are no Assumptions, Expectations, Conclusions, Judgements, Projections.
There are no cares.
Any of this is not the Bottom.
The Shit...
CLOUDS OF SHIT
When you Hit Bottom with both feet, or flat on your ass, or head first into the muck (as the case may be...), it stirs up the past incomplete suppressed shit that hangs around the Bottom until it is recognized and completed.
You may be surprised what you find there...
One woman discovered a mountain of unexpressed grief about her parents never having given her the spaceholding in which she could develop an accurately calibrated Compass Of Reality. This left her lacking Agency. She was sent into the world naive and unprepared. While expressing her grief, rage also came to the surface about the lack of being challenged in extraordinary ways to unfold hidden potentials which she was discovereing now, many years later. The unusual talents and precious knacks had always been there, but were kept dormant until being in an environment that encouraged them to come alive in practical applications for the benefit ot other individuals, couples, and organizations.
One man discovered a series of fears and sadnesses surrounding interactions with an old girlfriend where on adventures, she often seemed to come home with physical wounds which he had not wished for he, or he somehow could not protect her from. After contacting her and expressing this long-buried sadness and fear, and even anger about not taking better care, she had the chance to correct his impressions. She did not remember the physical discomforts, but was still inspired about the doorways to creating adventure that he had opened for her.
Time To Experiment...
IMPORTANT NOTE: These Hit Bottom Experiments are 'heavy duty'.
They are also, eventually, unavoidable on the Path.
You may have accidentally dropped into them somewhere along the way,
but if you were not properly prepared, they may have done you more harm than good.
Their value comes to those who are prepared to make use of them.
Being 'prepared' means to have built the Matrix in your Being so that you reflexively integrate and make creative use of the Experiential Distinctions provided.
Proper preparations may take years of Work.
But it is good Work. (That is an opinion...)
On the one foot, no one can do this Work for you.
On the other foot, no one can stop you from doing the Work.
PRACTICE SPLITTING YOUR ATTENTION SO THAT YOU CAN PUT YOUR ATTENTION ON YOUR ATTENTION AND GAIN THE ABILITY TO PUT YOUR ATTENTION WHERE YOU WANT IT TO BE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.01
Sit for 10 mins everyday at the same time in the same place for one week (7 consecutive days).
- Start your timer for 10 minutes.
- Place your energetic Centre on your physical centre, Declare your Grounding Cord and Bubble.
- Start noticing what is happening in your physical body. This is through sensations that are alive in your physical body. Notice anything in any of your 5 bodies (thoughts, feelings, emotions, impulses, ideas). However, start with your physical sensations (heat, cold, pressure, pain, tightness).
- Then with each sensation you notice, place part of your attention on the part of you that is noticing this. At first it will bounce away. That is ok.
- Keep practising, each time you notice a sensation, a feeling, a thought or an impulse. Use that as the entrance to the part of you that notices. You will find that it is quite simple to notice the sensations of life in your body and that there is a part of you that notices that, simultaneously.
- In this way your attention is split on two things happening at the same time.
Extra: Start to choose. Decide to put your attention on only your energetic body and the part that notices. Choose one sensation in your physical body and place your attention there while having another part of your attention on your energetic body.
Something else to try:
you can do this on your own or you can do it as part of your possibilty team or 3 cell.
Start with your eyes closed, sitting up right, feet flat on the ground.
1. Centre, Ground and Bubble Yourself.
2. Declare a golden cube of workspace, The golden cube sits just inside the parameters of the room you are in. Declare a fat black grounding cord for the Golden Cube straight to the centre of Gaia. You are now holding that space, start calling in your bright principles.
3. Now split your attention to declare another Golden Cube around the whole building you are in.
4. Make another split in your attention to declare a golden cube around the whole town you are in.
5. Again split your attention and declare a fourth Golden Cube around the whole country you are in.
6. Split your attention to declare a golden cube around the whole of planet earth.
7. Again split your attention so that there is a golden cube around the whole of Gaia, you are now similtaneously holding space for 6 golden cubes.
8. Make a final split of your attention, to declare a golden cube around the whole of the universe.
9. Then with your clicker dissapear each golden cube one at a time.
open your eyes.
share/make notes on what happened/what you noticed in each of your five bodies.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.01 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE PUTTING PART OF YOUR ATTENTION ON WHAT YOU ARE NOTICING AND ANOTHER PART OF YOUR ATTENTION ON WHAT YOU ARE NOTICING WITH - THIS CREATES THE POSSIBILITY OF POSSIBILITY
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.02
For one week, every day, practice putting part of your attention on what you are Noticing and another part of your attention on what you are Noticing with.
It may help you to set yourself an alarm for several times during your day to remind you of this experiment.
At the end of each day, write down what you Noticed and what you Noticed with. Do not attempt to change anything about what you Notice or what you Notice with.
You will find patterns of what you Notice, and patterns of what you Notice with. What is Noticed depends on the Purpose, the Matrix, and the needs in the person Noticing.
You will Notice things that have more emotional charge for you. The things that don't have charge for you, you don't notice at all. You can develop an ability to Notice your Noticing to the point that it becomes 'charge-neutral'.
If you can be charge neutral with your Noticing, you gain access to Doorways that were previously unnoticeable. You gain access to options, choices, dimensions of spaces, qualities of spaces, which you could not access before because they did not have enough charge, or had too much charge for you to notice them.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.02 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Points.
BECOME ABSURDLY EFFECTIVE AT NEUTRAL SELF OBSERVATION SO THAT YOU BECOME AWARE OF WHAT YOU ARE AWARE OF - SEE IF YOU EXPERIENCE THE WAKING STATE - SEE IF YOU CAN LEARN TO LIVE THERE (EXCEPT WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING A CAR)
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.03
Becoming absurdly effective at something takes practice and commitment. Here is your chance to become absurdly effective, through your commitment and practice, at becoming aware of what you are aware of.
The practice has several parts to it. The time suggestions here are a guideline. Only you can fin dout how long it actually takes you to become absurdly effective at neutral Self Observation.
1. For this experiment, start by building a data-bank in you of Self Observations, that is of neutral clues that help you to experientially distinguish and classify your various contradictory behavior patterns. Write down these clues in your Beep! Book over a course of 2 weeks that you dedicate to this purpose.
It does not matter that your Self Observations might completely exclude or contradict each other. You are not one. You are many. You are a Zoo. No matter what you observe, do not change anything.
2. After these first two weeks, start looking into each databank file. Take an entire week to dive into this exploration. It is the equivalent of peering into one of the compounds or cages in your Zoo. Eventually, as your neutral multi-dimensional descriptions accrue, you will be able to peer into a cage and give that character, or creature, a name. Soon each of the inhabitants of your inner Zoo will have a distinct and appropriate name that matches its dietary preferences, its reaction patterns, or its unconscious motivations.
3. Next, apply Self Inquiry. This is when your decision about which Point Of Origin you will stand in shifts from being unconscious to being conscious.
Independent Self Inquiry - or accompanied Self Inquiry (such as an emotional healing chairwork process during a Possibility Coaching session or a Possibility Lab) - allows you to follow each Self Will impulse from each of your creatures back to its source to find out what is really going on.
Take your Beep! Book notes and inquire into each of your behaviour patterns, following them back to their source.
In order to track impulses to their source, the time between the impulse and your actions needs to be slowed down very much so that you can observe the connection.
An entire personality character of one of the creatures in your Zoo, your Box, can originate in: an old decision, a splintered off piece of your energetic body body, a strategic move to disempower yourself, an energetic block, a false assumption, a vow made to yourself or to others, an interpretation of what you think something means, a resentment, etc.
These are source points that give you the key to heal the wound... to kill off (through bringing the structure into a transformational Phoenix Process) the neurotic Point Of Origin Place (...POOP).
4. Go through the relevant processes to heal the wounds that you uncovered. Be prepared to do this for a while...
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.03 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
BECOME PRESENT IN A MINIMIZED NOW AND A LOCALIZED HERE SO THAT YOU ARE MORE ACCURATELY CONNECTED TO CURRENT REALITY
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.04
The only time that you can be present is right now. The only place you can be present at is right here. Only in the small now and the small here can you be connected to current reality.
For this experiment, start right now, in a small Now and right here. You will need 10 minutes.
Go into first position by centering (bringing your attention with your intention onto your physical center), declaring your grounding cord and declaring your personal bubble of space.
Connect with your experience right where you are physically at the exact place that you sit or stand. Connect with your feelings, your movement, and the small here that is the space that your physical space inhabits.
Speak out loud from right now and right here - not from concepts, not from stories, not from what happened in the past or what will happen in the future.
Notice when you go into stories, into the past or into the future, or away from the small here, and navigate back to the small Now and the small here.
Repeat this experiment for 7 days in a row, of which at least 3 times you do it with a partner - meaning you invite someone to witness you or do the same experiment by taking turns in speaking.
After each time, take notes of what you noticed about being accurately connected with current reality in your Beep! Book. Include feedback that you received from your partner.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.04 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.
PRACTICE POSSIBILITATOR FIRST POSITION UNTIL BEING CENTERED, GROUNDED, BUBBLED, AND PRESENT BECOMES YOUR NATURAL BACKGROUND CONDITION
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.05
This experiment has several elements:
1) For 4 weeks, when you get out of bed in the morning, go into first position as you stand up:
- With your intention put your attention on your physical center (two fingers below your belly button, inside your belly), moving your energetic center there. Be fully present with your attention there. You are now centered.
- Declare a grounding cord from your energetic center to the center of the Earth. It is a two-way connection between you and Gaia through which you can receive and send energy and information. For the declaration, use your clicker, clicking your thumb and middle finger. Then check the colour of your grounding cord and say it out loud.
- Declare your personal bubble of space, which is for your own energy and information only. Use your clicker to declare your energetic bubble all around your phycial body, including underneath your feet and above the top of your head. Adjust your bubble to be closer to your skin when in close physical contact with other people, including your partner or children. In your bubble is your space. Not anyone elses! No one can enter your bubble without your permission.
2) During these 4 weeks, before you enter a room with other people, go into first position. Notice when you give your center away and take it back as soon as you notice, returning to first position. At first you might not even notice until you lie in bed at night. Never mind. Keep noticing and practicing, until you notice it in the moment, and then even just before you give your center away.
3) Once a week during the 4 weeks, practice in pairs with a partner, role playing. Have a timer ready:
- You give your center away to her, she gives your center away to you. (3 min).
- You give your center away to her, she takes your center. (3 min)
- You give your center away to her, she refuses to take it. (3 min)
- You keep yoour center, she keeps her center.
Notice what happens with you in this exercise. How much do you give your center away even to the exercise? Notice and write down your strategies to give your center away in your Beep! Book. This will help you notice when you give your center away in real time in your everday life.
After the 4 weeks, check whether being in first position and present has become your natural background condition. If not, go for the next round of 4 weeks, and so on, until it has.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.05 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
GO BAREFOOT INDOORS AND OUTDOORS MORE OFTEN TO GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD, CONNECT BETTER WITH GAIA, AND BE LESS DEFENDED AGAINST EXPERIENTIAL REALITY
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.06
Start this experiment by watching The Earthing Movie.
Then make it a practice to take your shoes and socks off (yes, both) whenever you enter your home, at least once a day. Walk around barefoot indoors for a minimum of 10 minutes per day over a period of 2 weeks. Notice the sensations in your feet as you do so. Notice the temperature, the textures of surfaces you walk on. Notice energetic differences depending on whether you stand or walk on concrete or wooden floors.
In parallel, commit to walking barefoot outdoors for a minimum of 5 minutes a day over a period of at least 4 weeks. Make it your morning routine to get out of bed barefoot and step out of your house or apartment barefoot. Find a place of bare nature, ie soil, grass, rock etc, and either stand or walk there. Notice what it feels like to have your barefeet on the ground. Notice temperatures, textures, energetic differences. If you do this experiment in winter, have warm water and a towel ready before you go out to rinse your feet with afterwards. Extend the period of time to walk barefoot outdoors to at least 10 minutes per day in the last week.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.06 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 2 Matrix Points.
JOIN AN ONLINE OR OFFLINE RAGE CLUB UNTIL YOU BECOME A RAGE CLUB SPACEHOLDER DUE TO SEEING THE NECESSITY AND VALUE OF BRINGING ZOMBIES BACK TO LIFE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.07
Your conscious Anger is a force of nature waiting to be put into service of life.
For this experiment, register and go through a 4-6 weeks offline or online Rage Club. Choose your Rage Club here: https://rageclub.mystrikingly.com. During the Rage Club, actually do the practices offered for outside the sessions, and go through at least one Emotional Healing Process per week that comes up from your participation in Rage Club. Let yourself wake up to your life by learning to say clear Yes and No (instead of "Yeah, sure" or "Mmmmm" "Uhmmm" "Not sure" etc), by saying what you want and what you don't want, and knowing what you care about.
Notice how you are a zombie when you do not have access to your conscious anger.
After finishing Rage Club, keep practicing feeling your Anger consciously and apply it to your everyday life.
Then join your next Rage Club, again practicing outside the sessions and going through an Emotional Healing Process each week.
Repeat until you are on fire to become a Rage Club Spaceholder because you know from your own experience of the necessity and value of bringing zombies back to life. This is the moment you register to Rage Club Spaceholder Training and start delivering your own Rage Club.
After going through these stages and registering for Rage Club Spaceholder Training, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.07 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
STELLATE YOUR ANGER AND DO AT LEAST THREE MONTHS OF THE 3-3-3 PRACTICE TO BRING YOUR ANGER INTO YOUR BONES SO THAT YOUR WARRIORESS IS THERE EVEN IF THERE IS NOTHING ELSE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.08
This experiment has 2 parts:
1. Stellate your Anger
You are designed to experience and express 100% maximum Archetypal Anger. Stellating is the process in which you go to 100% Archetypal Anger in a held space with a trained witness (Trainer) for no reason for as long as you want. With regards to the Archetypal force of your Anger, this experience transforms you from a planet (which absorbs more energy than it gives off) to a star (which radiates more energy than it absorbs).
For the purpose of this experiment, go through an Expand the Box Training, participate in at least one Rage Club, and then sign up to a Possibility Laboratory. Let the Trainer of the Possibility Laboratory know beforehand that you want to stellate your Anger. Then remind her during the Check-in round of the Possibility Laboratory that you want to stellate your Anger.
When the moment is there, go to 100% Archetypal Anger and stay there as long as you want. By stellating your Anger, you gain access to the Archetypal force of the Warrioress.
Once you stop after your stellating of Anger, direct the energy of your anger into your bones. That is th eresonance tissue for your Feeling of Anger, as discovered by the Feelings Practitioners.
2. Do at least 3 months of the 3-3-3 practice
This means you go into 3 minutes of Anger, 3 times a week, over a 3 month period.
For each of your 3 minute Anger practice, lie down on on your back on your bed or another soft-ish surface. Agree to not hurt yourself or anybody else (including anything else).
Set yourself a timer for 3 minutes. Before you start the timer, center, ground and bubble yourself (first position).
To start, close your eyes and squeeze your hands into tight fists, inner navigating into high intensity anger.
Consciously use your voice (words and sounds), facial expressions, and whole body movements to experience and express total anger for no reason.
Other Feelings and Emotions may arise. Don't worry. Learn to jump cleanly into and out of the other pure Feelings and Emotions, not mixing them together with each other or with your anger. Then in the last 15 seconds of your 3-3-3 session, intentionally return to experiencing and expressing anger, so that you start and end each 3-3-3 session in the Feeling of anger.
Once you stop, keep the energy circulating in your body and with your intention direct it into your bones.
This exercise is not about releasing your anger. It is about regenerating the energy of anger in your system so that your Warrioress is there even if there is nothing else.
After completing this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.08 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE LIVING WITH YOUR SWORD OF CLARITY OUT IN FRONT OF YOU (OR POINTED IN MULTIPLE DIRECTIONS AT MULTIPLE PEOPLE) AS YOUR WAY OF GREETING THE WORLD - NEVER PUT YOUR SWORD AWAY
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.09
Clarity does not appear in your mind. It is held in your 5 Bodies. Clarity comes from having Distinctions, and Distinctions are held in your Being. Your Sword of Clarity is your tool for applying Distinctions in Reality. This is how you create Possibility.
Your Sword Of Clarity is energetic. This means nobody can take it away from you. "You were born with it" is one way to see this. Another way to see it is "You were born as it". You were born as a Sword Of Clarity.
This experiment is for you to live as your Sword Of Clarity, to become your Sword of Clarity in action. You will need to be able to access your Conscious Anger to be able to be that. Join a Rage Club first if you haven't yet.
1. You will need to change your self image.
Your new self image that is proposed here is that you carry around an energetic Sword of Clarity with you. You are the Sword of Clarity. You cannot be found without your Sword. End of story.
Take a moment now to make this identity shift. Start in First Position - centered, grounded and bubbled. Stand in front of a mirror and say your new self image out loud to yourself.
2. Next, put your Sword of Clarity at your left side (i.e. the opposite side of your stronger hand) slid into your belt, parallel to the ground like a Japanese Samurai sword. You will carry your sword there about half of the time. However, be prepared to carry your Sword of Clarity in your stronger hand, ready for action at all times. It is a natural part of being Present. It sharpens your Attention. It focuses your action-energy of Conscious Anger.
3. Now practice your Sword out for the rest of your day by making Distinctions: this or that, now or later or never, yes or no, me or you or the other person or no one, stop or go, all these moment-to-moment decisions, you make with little movements of the Sword. Clear. Simple. Efficient.
4. As you wake up the next morning, your first action is to take up your Sword of Clarity again. Keep practicing for the whole day to have your Sword out by making distinctions until you go to bed at night.
5. Repeat for the next 3 weeks, and then the rest of your life.
After completing 3 weeks of this experiment, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.09 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 2 Matrix Points.
JOIN AN ONLINE OR OFFLINE FEAR CLUB UNTIL YOU BECOME A FEAR CLUB SPACEHOLDER DUE TO YOUR COMPASSION FOR THE LIFELESS FROZEN ONES WHO ARE BEING LIKE YOU USED TO BE NOT SO LONG AGO
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.10
Your Conscious Fear is a source for Nonlinearity, Unreasonability, Noticing and Scanning, of Creation, Attentiveness and precision. Conscious Fear is looking into the Unknown, the dark places where new Possibility might show up. It is for Navigating Space so you can look where there is no answer.
For this experiment, register and go through a 4-6 weeks offline or online Fear Club. Choose your Fear Club here: https://fearclub.mystrikingly.come. During the Fear Club, actually do the practices offered for outside the sessions, and go through at least one Emotional Healing Process per week that comes up from your participation in Fear Club. Let yourself wake up to your life by unfreezing your fear, learning to be nonlinear, face into the unknown, create from not knowing, and listen to the wisdom of your conscious fear as you in parallel heal your emotional fears one by one, reclaiming yur aliveness.
After finishing Fear Club, keep practicing feeling your Fear consciously and apply it to your everyday life.
Then join your next Fear Club, again practicing outside the sessions and going through an Emotional Healing Process each week.
Repeat until you cannot not become a Fear Club Spaceholder because you have compassion for all the other lifeless frozen ones who are like you used to be not so long ago. This is the moment you register for Fear Club Spaceholder Training and start delivering your own Fear Club.
After going through these stages and registering for Fear Club Spaceholder Training, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.09 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
BECOME ABSURDLY EFFECTIVE AT DISSOLVING STORIES INTO THEIR COMPONENT ASSUMPTIONS, EXPECTATIONS, CONCLUSIONS, ETC. UNTIL STORIES CAN NO LONGER SNAP YOU INTO THEIR STORY WORLDS
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.11
Human beings are story makers. Stories are glued together by Is-Glue.
To make a Story, we take an object (like he or she, or my life, or his life, or this website, or my dinner, or anything!) and we glue it together with an opinion, a judgment, a conclusion, a decision ("He is hot." Or, "She is always blaming me." Or, "My life is not like I wish it was." Or, "My life is fabulous." Or, "My life is pointless," etc... ) with Is-Glue.
However, 'is' does not exist in nature. 'Is' is a Construct invented by the human Mind. By becoming absurdly effective at dissolving stories into their component assumptions, expectations, conclusions, etc. until stories can no longer snap you into their story worlds, you get to be in reality.
1. To start this experiment off, write in your Beep! Book, and then memorize, a list of conjugations of "is":
is, am, are, was, were, has, have, had, do, does, did, may, might, must, can, could, should, would, shall, will and the "not" forms.
2. For one week, whenever you read something, notice the Is-Glue that sticks two completely disassociated concepts together as a Story.
3. For the week after, whenever someone speaks to you, notice the Is-Glue that sticks two completely disassociated concepts together as a Story.
4. For the week after that, notice how you speak (or think) using Is-Glue to stick disassociated concepts together as a Story.
5. After these 3 weeks, the real practice begins:
You start dissolving the stories with your Is-Glue Dissolver. Now that you can identify the Is-Glue, you can dissolve it. As you dissolve the Is-Glue in written pieces, in stories presented to you by others, or presented to you or others by yourself, you are left with the components of the stories. Observing neutrally the components of a story reveals to you what is behind the story.
What are the assumptions revealed by the story?
What are the expectations creating that story?
What are the conclusions made by the story?
What are the beliefs underneath that story?
Start by noticing for one day the assumptions, expectations, consclusions, beliefs of stories and make a gap where the Is-Glue sticks components together. For example, someone might tell you "I'm not a rude person." has sticks together "I", and "rude person".
After going through these stages and registering for Fear Club Spaceholder Training, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.11 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word to desribe your experiment. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE THRIVING IN WHAT REMAINS OF THE WORLD AFTER YOUR BULLSHIT DETECTOR DETACHES YOU FROM WHATEVER IS NOT REAL
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.12
You came to this planet to thrive. You are allowed to be a fully a live thriving adult.
1) Read this sentence from Derrick Jensen's "Walking On Water": The most revolutionary thing anyone can do is follow one's heart...once you have begun to do that ..the most moral and revolutionary thing you can do is help others find their hearts".
2) Call a team together (3 or more people).
3) Meet every week for one hour for 4 weeks.
4) One person speaks from their heart for a set amount of time (10 - 20 minutes). The other people use their own hearts to coach the person to go more authentically into their heart.
5) Swap roles so every heart in the space speaks.
Hint: The language of the heart is very honest specific and has feelings and emotions, sometimes the body changes shape to better express the heart.
6) Outside of your team, listen for the language of your heart everywhere.
7) Say "yes! I hear you!" everytime you hear the heart language.
8) Say "I don't beleive you" when ever you notice it is not a heart speaking.
9) Radically relay on the information your heart is bringing you to create the ecstactic connection your being is longing for.
10) Apply this to your own heart. In reference to any choice you make.
11) Take any of your belongings to an second hand shop, sell them or give them away if your heart has a no.
12) Apply this to every interaction you have with another person.
After four weeks please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.12 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word from your heart. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE SPEAKING FROM THE UNKNOWN UNTIL IT BECOMES YOUR NORMAL WAY OF SPEAKING AND INTERACTING
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.13
Do this experiment with a partner or as part of your 3 cell.
1. Center, Ground and Bubble your self,
2. Declare a Golden Cube, of workspace
3. Sit facing each other, choose who will go first and set a timer for 10minutes.
4. The person going first, raises their conscious fear by 10-20%
5. Jacks into the Infinite Resource of the Unknown. This is not about making things up or babbling intellectually. It is about being connected to the resource and being an open channel for the Unknown to flow through.
6. Conscious Fear is important to rise as it makes you more alert to the information from the Unknown.
7. Let yourself be curious about what the Unknown has to say right now, to this person through you.
8. The person listening can ask things like "What does the Unknown have for me?" "what do I need to hear?", let the unknown speak through you. It might come in waves, keep placing your attention back on the unknown if your mind tries to figure it, simply switch channels.
9. Swap roles.
10. Practise this at least twice a week for 4 weeks.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.13 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word from the unknown. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE IMPROVISING SO THAT YOU ONGOINGLY INVENT WHAT YOU SAY, AND DO, AND BE, OUT OF NOTHING - LET THE NEED TO BE PREDICTABLE OR TO CONFORM FALL OFF LIKE DEAD LIZARD SKIN
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.14
For this experiment you will need a whole day. Choose a day when you will be around people so that you have plenty of chance to improvise.
1. Declare yourself an Experimentor.
2. For the whole day do not answer any question directly.
3. Every time someone asks you something Decide to improvise.
4. Notice the pressure that a question creates.
5. Let your self feel what happens in you. What sensations rise? What does it do to your 5 bodies?
6. Let the first impulse come and pass, without acting on it.
7. Be in the tension that is created.
8. Choose to do 'something else' with that tension other than directly answer the question.
Hints: You could choose to start a totally different conversation, answer a different question, to smile, to walk away, to feel your fear and move a step closer to creating estatic intimacy.
9. Let other people's Reactions be part of the process. If they react, keep noticing what happens in your 5 bodies.
10. Choose to improvise moment by moment instead of reacting.
11. Be in continuous process.
12. Each time it seems as if you get stuck, do a 5 body scan . Notice where the need to be predictable or conform is stuck then let that dead skin slide away, as you estatically source the next impulse to connect, create or experience.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.14 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write one word. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
BECOME MONEY SO THAT YOU ALREADY ARE WHAT YOU NEED TO SURVIVE RATHER THAN TRYING TO GET ENOUGH MONEY TO SURVIVE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.15
Money is in no shortage, there is always an abundance of money. The question then is "How are you blocking the resources to support your evolutionary path to flow through you?"
1. Read the Become Money Website.
2. Choose 3 experiments from that website, write them down in your Beep!Book.
3. Do the experiments.
4. Go through an EHP intensive for at least 7 consequative days, around the topic of value and money.
5. After your intensive, Write the article titled HEALING MONEY AND VALUE WOUNDS.
6. Open a new page in your Beep!Book, write the title: WHAT VALUE I CAN PROVIDE TODAY.
7. List 10 ways you could create value to someone, a business, Gaia or local group.
8. Choose one person/situation/business or group you will provide value to. e.g clean a car, weed their garden, fix a leak, edit their writing, work on their website. Tell them how much you will do the job for. If they agree, do the job.
9. Open yourself a free website. On it list your nonmaterial offerings (Listening Space, Being appreciation, Feelings check in space etc). Those offerings are your practise ground for being your Non-material value in the world, ask for testimonials in exchange. Put them on your website.
10. Raise plants from seed and sell them as seedlings at your local market, or on the street. This is one way to create a nickel machine.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.15 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state how many experiments you did. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
ELIMINATE LEVEL AFTER LEVEL OF COMPLEXITY FROM YOUR LIFE TO GENTLY EMERGE INTO RADICAL SIMPLICITY TO GAIN ADDITIONAL FEEDOM OF MOVEMENT IN THE VOID
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.16
Now is the time to 'downcycle' our lives to local, more flexible communities and villages. While at the same time being in deep connection to other nanonations about the global. For this, start practising simplicity. The following are a bunch of things to try. Simply start, choose one thing that sees curious and doable and do it. Then do the next thing. Keep connecting to the spaciousness and Gaps you are creating in your life. Value those gaps and use them as spaces of emergence, for Archetypal Love to work in the world. Start orientating Your Being towards Evolution so it can hold more Consciousness and come into closer contact with other human beings, Practise valuing that above any zombie inducing, energy draining activity or thing.
1. Go through every Emotional Healing Process (EHP )that comes in the way of the authentic radiance of your Being. Write down in your BeepBook, every sentence that is a doorway, such as "I am not enough".
2. Buy nothing new for 3 months.
3. Eat only food closest to how it grows in nature, cooked simply for one month (no plastic wrapped food, no artifically processed or flavoured food, no takeaways).
4. Go through all your items in storage and give them, away sell them, or take them to the rubbish dump. Feel your feelings as you do this, write down any EHP that comes up around doing this, go through the EHPs.
5. Go through all the saved and downloaded files on your computer, delete them, or create something (an article, a film reel etc). Have only 3 or four folders on your desktop.
6. Create an open library of all the books you own, either set a mini physical one up in your community or list them online so that people can borrow them or add them to the Possibilitators Library.
8. Sell your car, invest in a bike, learn how to maintain the bike.
9. Make a list of all the energy draining activities in your life. (energy draining activites are ones that take up alot of money, time, attention, cause you to go into zombie mode, require fossil fuels or cause debt. Activities that do not feed your being, Gaia or create regenerative infastructure for future generations). Every day for 3 months make a step towards eliminating these things from your life.
10. At the end of 3 months write an article titled something like "STEPS TO RADICAL SIMPLICTY"
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.16 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state the name of your article. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
EXPAND YOUR CAPACITY FOR RADICAL RELIANCE ON AIR, WATER, AND FOOD FROM GAIA - DO EHPs ABOUT YOUR SCARCITY ISSUES
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.17
Your 5 bodies are built to be nourished by Gaia in totality. You can re learn how to radically relay on Gaia. Do all of the following, it will take you about one month.
1. Become a researcher of local edible weeds by speaking with someone who already knows. Learn one or two plants that you can actually eat that grow close to you, they might even be in your lawn. Eat them 3 times a week for one month.
2. Go into the mountains where the water is fresh, uncontaminated by farming or human activity. Fill up a 10-20 litre container. Carry it back to your house, drink it until it runs out, do it again. Make it a ritual.
3. Get your self a fishing line, or simply find someone who knows how to fish start going out fishing. Catch at least two fish, give one away to someone, cook and eat the other yourself.
4. Start attending a local community garden project. Become involved. Set it up so that you never buy vegetables or fruits from a supermarket or grown further than 10kms from your house.
5. Find a local food preserving workshop. Attend it. Or if you can not find one, get a group of people together and find a person who specialises in basic food preparation and storage techniques and ask them to run the workshop for you.
6. Make a list in your Beep!Book of all the services and goods you currently use through big corporations, eg: supermarkets, banks, chemicals, drug stores, big warehouse stores, buildng supply chains etc..
7. On the next page write down all the fears that come up if you STOPPED using all of these. Every week go through at least one EHP from your list.
8. Join a Fear Club and stellate your fear (see experiment HITBOTTO.10)
9. For one month become a researcher of how you source scarcity. Carry your BeepBook everywhere note done every time you choose to do somethign because of a scarcity reason. e.g: "I go to work because I need more money" "I ended the conversation because I did not have time". Notice and become amazed about how you source scarcity in your life. During this month go through one EHP at least per week on what sentences you find.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.17 in your free account at StartOver.xyz In the proof section state one way your capacity for reliance on Gaia has expanded. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
GO TO THE EDGE OF MODERN CULTURE AND ITS INFRASTRUCTURE AND STAND THERE - LETTING THE HYPER REQUIREMENTS OF CIVILIZATION FALL OFF YOUR SHOULDERS LIKE WATER OFF THE BACK OF A DUCK
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.18
Do this experiment as often as you like. Do it during early morning hours or in the evening and at other times of the day. Depending on where you live. The aim is to get somewhere that is untouched by humans, get to a coast line or beach, get to the edge where a rainforest or wild bush begins.
1. Take a little food supplies in a back pack. Leave the town, leave the city. DO NOT take anything to do. You are going to the edge to be at the edge. Head to mountains or the coast and stay there.
2. Stay for at least 2 hours. Although if it takes two weeks stay that long also (remember the agreements, the purpose of this experiment is to build Matrix in you so that you become able to be consciousness in action, on planet Earth right now, as a Person of Agency delivering their Non-material Value while being the hands and mouth of your Archetypal Lineage, keep that in mind while you pack your supplies...im just saying you might need to pack a tent..)
3. Experience being there. Let all your 5 bodies be nourished by that place. BE there, with out story. Experience what is happening inside of you and in the natural world. Make discoveries of natural treasures from Gaia.
4. Shrug off all the hooks, traps and judgements that belong in modern infastructure, notice how they have nothing to hang on to here.
5. When you return write the Article "GOING TO THE EDGE AND STAYING THERE".
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.18 in your free account at StartOver.xyz In the proof section write one word to describe what happened for you when you got to the edge of modern infastructure. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
ADDICTION IS NOT THE PROBLEM - ADDICTION IS THE SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM, SO FIND OUT WHAT THE PROBLEM IS AND DO LAYER AFTER LAYER OF EHPs SO YOU CAN RESPONSIBLY PARTICIPATE IN THIS ECSTATIC UNIVERSE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.19
It is not a question of "why the addiction?" It is a question of "why the pain?" This experiment is for you to uncover the pain that your addiction is covering up. It could be unmet childhood needs, it could be a core deep wounding or beleive, it could be a tangle of emotions connected to stories and events that you have not yet processed. The addiction is a creative solution to keep you from 'hurting'. The pains are what you will get to research here.
1. Watch the film "The Wisdom of Trauma" .
2. Read the Addicted wesite.
3. List what you are addicted to. Choose one of those things.
4. For one week do not change anything, when ever you engage in the addiction simply Notice what is happening in any of your 5 bodies, What are you thinking? what are you feeling? What is happening in your energetic body?
5. Make notes of this in your BeepBook.
6. Notice if their are any patterns of thoughts, emotions, sentences.
7. Ask for someone to holdspace for you. Say "I want to find out the pain that my addiction to ... is stopping me from feeling."
8. Their job is to then ask you "What would happen if you did not ...?" You will either immeadiatly feel something or you will not feel anything.
9. Let yourself feel for at least 20minutes everything that happens or does not happen when you are asked the above question. Have your spaceholder make notes in your BeepBook of core sentences or beleives or emotional fears, sadnesses etc.
10. The following week call together a team of at least 7 people to go through an EHP Intensive. Agree with them that you will call them at anytime for a feeling space. If they are not avaliable they simply do not answer. Then you call the next person and so on.
11. Arrange to go through at least one EHP per day.
13. Call up someone feel what you are feeling.
15. Stay in connection with your team.
16. After one week, celebrate. And keep going.
17. What are you really starving for? It could be a hunger or pain in any of your 5 Bodies.
Additional: Holdspace for someone else to go through the EHPs covered up by their addiction.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.19 in your free account at StartOver.xyz In the proof section state your problem. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
MAKE FRIENDS WITH NOTHINGNESS SO THAT YOU GAIN THE SKILLS OF MAKING NOTHING OUT OF SOMETHING IN ORDER TO CREATE THE POSSIBILITY OF MAKING SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.20
The Nothing is a resource, where there is no stories, no impulses, it is an empty space where everything begins, ends and anything is possible. If you come up against resistance, you are not connecting to the Nothingness. If you get stuck, trying to force something or pretend, then you are not yet at the Nothing. Connecting to the Nothingness is an enlivening experience.
Choose the below experiments:
1. For one week set a timer every morning for 5 minutes.
2. Center, Ground and Bubble yourself. Then connect to the Nothing.
3. Stay there for 5 minutes.
1. Go to a beach, create something below the hide tide line out of sand.
2. Go back to the beach on the next low tide and notice how your thing no longer exists.
3. Notice what happens in you when you experience something turning to Nothing. Make notes in your BeepBook.
1. Everytime you are in a conversation with someone, practise opening a Black Hole to drain the space of energy.
2. Use Completion Loops and avoid any Roadblocks to communication.
3. Stay Present. Scan your 5 bodies and Notice what is happening.
1. Make the Nothingness bigger than what ever is by putting yourself in loud, busy environments or highly charged emotional environments.
2. Connect to the Nothing and become bigger than what ever is in the space.
3. A loud truck might go by, connect to the Nothing that is bigger than that.
4. You might find yourself with a person who has a lot of emotions going (anger, mixed, sadness, fear or joy), simply become bigger than all of that by connecting to the Nothing.
5. Notice what happens in you, in the energetic space and in the other person.
6. Make notes in your Beep!Book about what you discover.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.20 in your free account at StartOver.xyz In the proof section write one word to mark your connection to nothingness. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.
UNLEASH YOUR EMOTIONAL, MEMETIC, AND ENERGETIC BAGGAGE WITHOUT LITTERING IT IN THE WORLD, FORCING OTHERS TO CLEAN UP YOUR MESS - YOU MAY HAVE INHERITED THE MESS BUT IT IS STILL YOUR MESS
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.21
Make it a daily Practice to keep identifying new forms of Baggage you are carrying around with you out of habit or imagined necessity.
1.For two whole weeks do the following at the same time every day it will take about 5minutes.
2. Center, Ground and Bubble yourself, close your eyes and Scan your physical body for excess baggage: Tightness, pain, discomforts, dis-eases. Make clear specific notes in your BeepBook.
3. Scan your Emotional body for emotional knots, mixed emotions, familiar fears, resentments, guilts. etc also make notes in your BeepBook of these.
4. Scan your Energetic body for tiredness, densities, heaveyness, unwanted presences, entities anything else you notice, make notes of this in your BeepBook also.
5. Scan your Mental body for spiraling sentences, ideas, thoughts, memetic contructs that have a stagnant quality. Scan for parent voices or outside authority voices. Make notes of all of these.
6. scan for all sorts of Meme you carry about how to be a person in the world. What assumptions to you have? what beleives? what should you value? write these all down. You know you have found a meme when you can not get any simpler, for example "I am only loved when I make everyone else happy", "chocolate makes everything better".
7. Once a week check in with a Baggage Partner. Each person has 20 minutes to do a full 5 body Baggage Check in. The other partner listens and takes notes. Share these notes later with your partner.
8. Make a time outside of your Baggage checkin time to go through EHPs that you find in your emotional body. At least one per week.
9. Go through memetic reconstruction around any memes you find. Make it normal to practise constantly scanning for baggage in any of your five bodies.
Note: Physical baggage (items that you no longer need) can be dropped and taken away as a side of effect of cleaning up the baggage in your emotional and energetic bodies and through meme reconstruction. You will discover that these things simply are no longer neccessary in your life.
After two weeks please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.21 in your free account at StartOver.xyz In the proof section name one peice of baggage you dropped in this process. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO EXIT YOUR ADOLESCENCE AND ENTER RADICAL FREEDOM SO THAT YOU HAVE A NEUTRAL SPACEPORT FROM WHICH TO BLAST OFF INTO YOUR AUTHENTIC ADULTHOOD INITIATIONS
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.24
1. Set aside five years of your life (it will likely take less than that, start with five anyway), whatever age you are.
2.Write yourself a permission slip that for the next five years you have complete and utter authority to not know what the heck you are doing, you have authority to 'be a mess', 'to care deeply' to go before you know how and to create unreasonable.
3. Read the poem The Journey, by Mary Oliver. As you are reading let it sink into your 5 bodies.
4. Sign up to a Rage Club Make sure you attend every session.
6. Go through an at least a 7 day EHP intensive around Unmet Childhood needs.
7. Declare that you are now an Apprentice of life. As such find a person to apprentice yourself to. You can stay with them for as long as you like and leave when ever you want also.
8. Go to the ocean, watch the waves, every time a wave rises up start to make a louder sound with your voice. When it crashes become quiet, learn to move your body in tune with the waves. Bring your energy up when the waves rise then down as they crash. (you will be trained by Gaia as much as by other humans over the next five years).
9. Move away from the town you grew up in.
10. Simplify your job. Either find a simple manuel job or find away to reduce how many hours you work. Start filling the extra time with things like walking barefoot, going through EHPs, learning how to be with other humans with out adapting or trying to fix them.
11. Every morning Center, Ground and Bubble yourself, if you do not yet know how to do that, follow the links and read carefully through each website.
After five years, please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.24 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write two words to decribe the past 5 years. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
PRACTICE RADICALLY RELYING ON E.C.C.O. TO PROVIDE BENEFICIAL OPPORTUNITIES AND COINCIDENCES FOR PROVIDING YOUR HEALING AND TRANSFORMATIONAL SERVICES
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.25
You will need a whole day to do this Experiment, choose one where you have no other commitments or plans.
1. First thing in the morning pack a small day pack.
2. Put a full water bottle in, a pen, your Beep!Book, your Growness cards, sun protection, warm layer, a raincoat, your Possibilty stone, simple, nutrient dense food (beans, rice, bread, fruit) and a little cash. DO NOT take your cell phone, laptop or other electrical device.
3. Tell someone that you will be going out and you will be back by the evening (give a time 6pm-10pm). Tell them you will not be contactable in that time and that you are doing an experiment of radically relaying on the Earth Coincident Control Officers. (If they do not understand that, tell them you are practising relaying on your impulses and you are going on an adventure).
4. Centre, Ground and bubble yourself. Declare a golden cube around the whole of Gaia. Set your intention to be at service of Gaia, providing healing and transformational services for the next 6-8hours. You are making yourself known so that ECCO can start arranging things for you.
5. Walk out your gate by 10am at the latest.
6. Radically trust the direction you choose.
7. Listen to every impulse that arises, simply ask "Is this impulse information from ECCO?" DO NOT make it a complicated exercise, the question has a simple "Yes" or "No" answer.
8. Every "Yes" you get, follow that, radically.
9. It might be to walk to certain place, talk to a certain person, walk in a particular direction. You might get a strong urge to go somewhere and you do not how to get there. Ask questions to people, start conversations, you do not need to get anywhere or convince any one of anything.
10. Stay out in the world as an agent of transformation and healing for the whole day.
Note: Many things could happen on this day, make notes in your beep!Book as you go. Note down the names and contact details of people you meet, give people your growness card, let them know where they can find you. Arrange for the next meeting time, leave your cards at cafés on notice boards.
11. Write an article about what happened in your day titled: A DAY OF ECCO DIRECTED TRANSFORMATION AND HEALING
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.25 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write the name of your article. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
DO DAILY EXPERIMENTS - BOTH SMALL AND LARGE - TO MORE ACCURATELY CALIBRATE YOUR COMPASS OF REALITY - LEARN HOW THINGS WORK
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.26
Everyday for one week make something from scratch that you have never made before.
1. Take walk, find a peice of drift wood that could also act as a spoon. Use it as a spoon for the rest of the day.
2. Research natural hair care alternatives wash your hair with one made from natural, raw unprocessed ingredients that you can make yourself.
3. Research how to make a stool. Get the materials, get the tools, find a support person if you need, make the stool. If it is wobbly or breaks, learn what did not work, make it again until you have a solid stool that can be used daily.
4. Build an outdoor fire and light it with out matches. Get a flint and steel and practise lighting and tending to a small fire.
5. Sit in nature (beach, park, your back yard) whilst the sun is going down for at 30 minutes and simply observe. Notice the changing temperature, the animal, bird and insects that come to life, the changing light. Notice what happens in your 5 bodies during this transformative period.
6. Find someone who knows how to fish. Go fishing with them, gut the fish with a sharp knife. Cook the fish in a flat pan or over an open fire. Eat the fish on the same day.
7. Buy yourself a knife, learn how to sharpen the blade, use it for a whole week as the only eating utensil, for every meal. Prepare all food with it, carry it with you every where.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.26 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state the number of things you tried from the above list. This Experiment is worth 7 Matrix Points.
AVOID THE 'BEAUTIFUL HOLY TRIBAL GODDESS' / 'HANDSOME HOLY TRIBAL MAN' TRAPS AND HEAD TOWARDS THE 'EYE OF THE NEEDLE' INSTEAD OF FOLLOWING SOMEONE INTO A DEAD END
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.27
As you leave modern culture and start sourcing something else. You may discover an ectasy on the path that you want people to follow you. This is a trap. If you look good doing the sexy cool new thing. Such as deeply sharing from your heart and start circles for others to do the same. Then you are simply dressing patriarchy patterns up in new clothing and selling an illusion.
Instead your job is to go through the Eye of The Needle. It is not to keep looking good and collecting people who need you. Your job is to fall so fully apart there is no putting you back together again. Authentic Initiation is impossible if you need to keep anything together for a shining thing/idea/image you can sell to others. This is a way that the uninitiated adolesent plays out the construct of Patriarchy, dressed up as next culture and it does not hold in the fire of authentic transformation.
You will need to completely subvert everything you thought was reality if you are to authentically emerge into adulthood. That means finding the point at which you decided to enter Patriarchy. You go back to the point of incompetence, where you do not have an identity.
It is called the eye of the needle because you need to drop enough of your baggage from patriarchy to become small enough to fit through the eye of a needle in order to start over from zero.
You cannot have to delicious possibilities and diversities avalible to unfold into in Archiarchy if you do not first shed all the patriarchial agreements, structures and accolades you have accumulated.
Just as the Giant Spider crab must shed its shell every 2 years during it's 100 year life span, leaving it weakened, defensiveless and without protection for up to 7 days, before it grows a new bigger shell.
You too must start the process of totally seperating your fresh vulnerable skin from the hardened shell of patriarchial baggage.
The giant spider crab first starts by secreting enzymes that break apart the shell's connective tissue to it's skin,
You too must start dissolving the connective tissue that attaches you to all Patriachial concepts, systems, images, roles and aggendas, it will be painful because you have come to identify yourself with those parts.
Just as the Giant spider crab then sucks water into the widening space between it's shell and its skin, liquifying the once integral structures that bound it to the hard shell.
You too must go liquid around all the concepts of what it means to be a citizen of patriarchy. As you do so you are making space for the softness of your being to slip through the eye of the needle, so that you can unfold into the fuller, more radiant person who can inhabit and explore the multidemensional nature of the world. You will not fit through with your old rigid shell from patriachy still tightly fixed to your back.
Start navigating towards the Eye of the Needle by being able to experiential distinguish between the Four Feelings and Four Emotions. Practise making a list of every Emotion that comes up in the back of your BeepBook, continue below.
1. Become familiar with the Liquid State by going through one or more Emotional Healing Processes in the next week. Ask an experienced spaceholder to holdspace for you.
3. Write in your BeepBook every EHP that comes up for you when getting rid of the thing.
5. Every morning for the next month as soon as you wake up Center, Ground and Bubble yourself and declare, "I am leaving Patriarchy".
6. Anounce at your next Possibilty Team meeting "I am preparing myself to go through the Eye of the Needle, exiting patriarchy forever, please give me my next steps", write everythign they say in your BeepBook.
7. choose one thing and do it that week.
8. Each time you catch your self turnign towards 'enlightment' turn instead towards Disillusionment. Let yourself feel the pain (fear, sadness, rage) of complete disillusionment, that in order to survive in patriarchy you had to let the parts of you die that where integral to your Being. That nobody actually cared about you. They only cared about how well you could fullfil your role in patriarchy.
9. When you are ready ask a Trained Spaceholder who has been through the Eye of the Needle process themselves, to holdspace for you to go through the Eye of the Needle.
10. Go through the Eye of the Needle.
Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.27 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state the number of things you tried from the above list. This Experiment is worth 6 Matrix Points.
DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO JACK INTO THE INFINITE RESOURCES OF YOUR BRIGHT PRINCIPLES AND YOUR ARCHETYPAL LINEAGE FOR USE IN YOUR DAILY LIFE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.29
"The earth is an invitation to Initiation,
to the death of what we have been and the birth of something new"
- David Spangler
1. Set aside a period of time of at least three months.
2. Declare this period of time to be your time to prepare yourself for jacking into your infinite resources.
3. At your next possiblity team meeting ask your team, "please give me possibilities for things I can do to prepare myself for jacking into my Archetypal Lineage.
4. Write down everything they say word for word, if they are not being clear, bring your sword of clarity and ask questions like "for how long? what do you mean? be more specific".
5. For the period of at least 3 months your intention is to prepare yourself for Jacking Into Your Archetypal resources, every EHP you go through is to prepare you for jacking into Infinite resources. Every practise you do is in preparation.
6. Every night before going to sleep ask your dream world "what are my next steps in preparing myself for jacking in?", write down your dreams every morning as soon as you wake, or find a dream check in buddy to tell them to.
7. Take any next steps that emerge through your dream world.
8. Go through the process of adding mass to your bright principles. By choosing one practice for each Bright Principle that you will do for the course of 3 months. Use your Team with their swords of clarity and bullshit detectors to refine your practises and make them specific.
After 3 months Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.29 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state one word that describes your 3 month experiment. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
REVEAL YOUR MEMETIC CONSTRUCTS AS PART OF YOUR REGULAR CONVERSATIONS SO THAT THE CONSTRUCTS BECOME POROUS LIKE SWISS CHEESE WITH SO MANY DOORWAYS IN AN OUT THAT THE CONSTRUCTS DISINTERATE AND BECOME PART OF THE BACKGROUND SCENERY RATHER THAN YOUR SECRET HIDEAWAY
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.33
This is an on going experiment. You might do this for the rest of your long, adventerous, ecstatic, beautiful, loving, glorious, radiant life. Lets start with one week.
1. For the follow week practise noticing your own memetics.
2. Write a list of everything that comes up for you under these catagories.
- Valuable (people/things/jobs/belongings/actions) are... while unvaluable things are ....
- For me to be loved in this world I must... otherwise...
- I believe that...
- I assume that every one knows...
- Three questions I always ask...
3. For the following week every time you notice your self using one of those beleives/sentences/questions/assumptions, say exactly how this Meme goes. State "I assume you know to put the butter in the fridge because I have a meme that goes everyone knows that butter belongs in the fridge".
4. Keep doing this for every question or assumption that rises up from anything conversation or action that you do. For example "I am buying this brand of hair care because I have a meme that goes healthy hair is important to be social and attractive and if I am not social and attractive I will be left alone and die'.
5. Get use to being in the Liquid State that happens when you reveal your memes. Let yourself feel the Fear to what ever intensity it really is when you reveal your thoughtware.
6. Stay in the Gap that you go into when you reveal your thoughtware and have no new thoughtware, yet.
After one month, Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.33 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section state one that you have updated. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
LET REALITY EXPLAIN ITSELF TO YOU THROUGH DOING THE JOBS THAT LAND ON YOUR BENCH TO THE BEST OF YOUR ABILITY - KEEP PRACTICING YOUR SKILLS TO ABSURDLY EFFECTIVE LEVELS SO GAIA CELEBRATES YOUR SHINE
Matrix Code HITBOTTO.42
You always have Jobs on your bench. You can choose to do them, ignore them, do them in zombie mode or choose to do them to the very best of your ability so that you can beome grounded in reality. Reality is where you get to practise and refine your talents because reality is the only real teacher.
1. Take out a pen and paper and write down all the jobs on your bench at the moment.
2. Write every article that is on your bench to write.
3. Write down every tiny job that needs doing in the physical house you live. Write down the jobs you need to do on your computer, at your work place, with your family, out in the community, the garden, the shed, the jobs on your creative work bench.
3. Write down every conversation you need to have and thing you notice that need doing. Place the list on the fridge or the wall of your house.
4. Over the course of the following month do every job on your list as if you are an Apprentice to that craft. If the car needs cleaning, do that with so much care, attention and love, as if you were to become the successor of that service lineage. If your sock needs a hole darned in it, carefully set aside time to meticulously close the hole.
5. Bring your full Attention to every job you do. Notice that if the job is on your bench it is your job to do. Ask yourself, every job that you do: What can I learn about the nature of reality from this job? How can I better do this job? what would it take to do this job 10% better? Keep asking those questions until you find the ectasy in Creating in alignment with Reality. Let everything else fall where it may (ie stories, pressure, projections, shoulds, energy vampires). Your job is to do your job as if it was the greatest act of Love you ever got to do.
6. Place part of your attention on your archetypal body in every job you do, start noting down possible Job titles in the inside front cover of your Beep!Book as you are doing and ticking off your jobs.
7. At the end of one month write an article titled something like: WHAT REALITY TAUGHT ME THROUGH A MONTH OF JOBS
After one months Please register Matrix Code HITBOTTO.42 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the proof section write your job title. This Experiment is worth 5 Matrix Points.
Tim Minchin
Why do people laugh during this performance? It is not funny. He is not fooling around.
Who would you need to be, to be able to do this? (besides a master musician...)